Feb. 28th, 2015

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He's not a bad guy. At least, he doesn't think he is. He's just someone that knows how to take care of himself in any situation. He's not the kind to leave an opportunity unplucked.

There's always been a hunger in him. A boundless need to survive. No matter what test was thrown at him, he always fought to the very end. It was one of those things that kept him special: pure.

Sometimes he feels a genocidal fury. The echo of his people at home, their fierce warrior spirit and their need to subdue, conquer. He hates that part of himself. That sour evil persona that rode in his skin.

He needed to get away from the temptation. He needed to start somewhere new and fresh.

He needed just one chance.

So when he found the letters from the delightful Smith family, he was happy to take the call. It felt like destiny. Everything he ever wanted neatly wrapped up in a bow.

A new name. A new life. A great opportunity.

"Hello"

Feb. 28th, 2015 12:40 am
feygan: (Buffy knife)
There are days when I want to be like, "Hello, I love you," but that hardly ever happens to me.

When I'm riding that whirlwind high, I'm vivacious and loud. I am the life of the party; or at least I think I am. But when that crash comes, as it so inevitably does, I am a complete Downer Dan. I can't help myself.

Yes, my mental illness does control me. It severely impacts the way that I interact with other people. I am unable to maintain my end of a friendship.

I get shy and run away. Or I start to feel the meanness growing inside me and I have to take a step back.

I still love to be spoken to or about, but I can't open up my own mouth. I can't seem to find the words to say "Hello."

It hurts to be so broken inside.

I have my interests and I have my joys, but I realize that I need human interaction. I need a companion in my life. Someone that can handle things when I cannot.

There are days I feel myself slipping away into the darksome cavern of despair. (Exactly. That's just how bad it is. "Cavernous darkesomeness" is the concept of the day. It's like supermax hell with the power turned up. Don't worry. I can laugh at myself. I am holding on. It just gets really hard sometimes.)

Things would be better if I had someone to make sure the house is clean and there's proper food in the house. A Watson would be nice, though I could well do with someone that came in and quickly got the work done.
feygan: (yamiflower)
Is it sad that I'm super sad right now? Uh.

I've got so many worries pressing down on me that I can't tell which ones are real and which ones are just in my head.

It's scary to be so uncertain all the time. It makes me come off stranger than I really want to be.

Whatever. All I can do is carry on like nothing's wrong.

And possibly spam my feelings out into the universe via LJ entries and odd scribblings.

They're the only way that I can communicate at the moment. I mostly feel like there's something lodged in my throat when I try to speak. It's very frustrating.
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This one goes out to Katherine. She's a wonderful patron and friend from Patreon.

Title: CONQUISTADORE
Author: Harper Kingsley
Original Fiction
Genre: drama
Rating: mature(?)
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He's not a bad guy. At least, he doesn't think he is. He's just someone that knows how to take care of himself in any situation. He's not the kind to leave an opportunity unplucked.

There's always been a hunger in him. A boundless need to survive. No matter what test was thrown at him, he always fought to the very end. It was one of those things that kept him special: pure.

Sometimes he feels a genocidal fury. The echo of his people at home, their fierce warrior spirit and their need to subdue, conquer. He hates that part of himself. That sour evil persona that rode in his skin.
Read more... )
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I wish there were more reviews/discussion of "Allies & Enemies." There's these two good ones on Goodreads => https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/22048906-allies-enemies <= but that's been it. Nobody else is saying anything, so I'm left wondering if people even like it.

I don't need super praise or love or whatever. I just want to see a little feedback. It's kind of like quality assurance. Should there be more stuff like this, or do people want something a bit different?

Plus what does "...I now understand the table flipping issues of others..." mean? Are there discussions happening right now where people are bitching that A&E is terrible? Do they have questions they would honestly want answered? Because I would be ecstatic if people asked questions about the Heroes & Villains universe.

I'm gonna write what I'm gonna write. But it would be nice to know if people are enjoying things, or if they want more detail or specificity or something. Idk.
feygan: (Cupid-double thumbs)
I know he'd be super offended, but most of the time I want to tell him to shut up, I'm trying to watch the movie.

This is my first time seeing Big Hero 6 and he just WON'T SHUT UP. It ruins the movie.

Big Hero 6

Feb. 28th, 2015 09:45 pm
feygan: (Danny-moog)
Finally watched Big Hero 6 and I actually really enjoyed it. Sure, there are some serious flaws, but it's a great piece of entertainment. I have definitely been inspired by Hiro and Baymax.

This movie is one of those that kids will probably like more than adults--the story was a bit thin and I couldn't help thinking that they could have done so much more with the setup. Still, I could see how this fandom could spawn some great fics, and at the end of the day, isn't that what I'm here for? :P

PROMPT -> Realizing Tadashi's dream to help people, Hiro and Baymax aren't just superheroes.  They are also a mobile rescue unit, using Baymax's advanced sensors to seek out and help the people of Sanfransokyo. From fires to heart attacks, they aren't just saving the city from up and coming supervillains. They're real heroes.

*

BTW, from what I understand, Jupiter Ascending is supposed to be an awesome girl!movie. I was interested in seeing it when it came out on DVD, but now I can barely wait.
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Title: Faizel II
Author: Harper Kingsley
World: Faizel
Characters: Faizel/Charlemagne, Ewing, Isadore, Ives, Jenny Deacon
Genre: vampires, mm, slash
Rating: mature
Summary: Picks up where Faizel left off. Faizel is fitting into his new world like a shark with lasers on its head.

CHAPTER ONE

Sometimes Ewing wondered if they had invited a devil into their midst. Because there wasn't a doubt in his mind that Charlemagne was possessed. And the devil was named Faizel. Charlemagne's darling love. The mysterious vampire that had appeared from nowhere to steal Charlemagne's heart and rearrange the natural order of the world.

Ewing personally thought of Faizel as a booty call gone wrong, though he would never say it aloud. He valued his life too much.

Charlemagne wanted to keep Faizel secret, and Ewing was willing to go along with it. Because honestly, how could he even explain someone like Faizel? The guy scared the ever living fuck out of him, and that was no lie.

"Are you certain this is how you want to do things?" Deacon asked in her "I'm a complete hard as nails Law Officer" voice.

Ewing fought to keep still where he knelt on the hardwood floor along with the other low level vampires. It was pretty boring, but he wasn't one to battle the status quo. He didn't want to get tortured and killed.

Isadore had been summoned by Prince Lucian, which meant they'd been forced to accompany her to display her level of awesome to the rest of the Lords and Ladies. They were each showing off how powerful and bad ass they were, which meant uncomfortable outfits and unnatural poses for their followers.

It was a revelation to look across the banquet hall and see the other retinues; some of those guys had it really rough. Ewing didn't even want to think about what was up with the guy with the weird metal clamps on his face or the chick with the fish hooks through her nipples. All he had to do was wear old fashioned clothes and serve imaginary tea; that didn't seem so bad in comparison to what those other schlubs had to put up with.
Read more... )

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