I'm that crazy shut in

I was watching Flower Boy Next Door and it made me sad because I know
what it's like to be alone. Not because people hate me or anything
else, but because being around other people makes me nervous and
uncomfortable.

The internet has been a big outlet for me for years, though I find I'm
reluctant to make personal connections online now too. I read the
stories of others and I throw mine out there, but I can't manage to
say anything, not even "hello."

I suppose I was born to lurk. It's just frustrating sometimes, when I
want to say something and I can't force the words out because I KNOW
there's someone out there listening. A real live person.

There's so many people I admire, and it makes me upset my reviews
consist mostly of "Thank you" because the rest of the words won't come
out. Then someone will send me a beautifully worded review and I'll be
too shy to say anything.

FTtSoL 05

Title: Faster Than the Speed of Love
Author: Feygan
Fandom: Harry Potter

It felt strange to Draco to wake up so refreshed. It seemed as though
he'd been carrying invisible weights forever. Every time he turned
around, his emotional burden would get heavier until finally he barely
felt safe to breathe.

Sleeping on that luxurious bed in Potter Manor had allowed him to rest
without dreaming. He felt safe with the knowledge that Charlus was
nearby.

He gave the house elf that had wakened him a brisk nod and climbed out
of bed. He walked to the bathroom to relieve himself and to straighten
out his appearance.( Read more... )

TWWS 04

Title: The World With Shrimp
Author: Feygan
Fandom: BtVS/Harry Potter

18. part eighteen
.
He had been summoning Snape for days and He was getting angry about
the lack of response. He expected His followers to give instantly into
His demands.

Lord Voldemort paced His private chamber as He lashed at Severus Snape
with the Dark Mark. There were the echoes of screams in the stillness
and He knew that Snape suffered. The Mark was still connected, which
made his failure to respond a purposeful defiance.( Read more... )